Vintage Erotica

I am too tired for words lately. Stay safe and .. protect your peace. I love you.

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The tunnel, the portal, the distance, the light.

These are the stories of dying. I read them all the time at NDERF.ORG. Here is my perspective / summary. When your physical body dies, “you” are evacuated from it. This is some kind of a version of reality I accepted for myself a very long time ago. I think it is an improvement, because […]

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Pictures, candles, flowers.

Images of rooms. Little areas. Spots you can pay attention to and get lost in. Thoughtfully laid out. Pictures, candles, flowers. It’s almost December, 2020. Happy home festivals, be safe out there this year. I love you.

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Goddess Energy

Today, right now in this moment and in this hour, I am channeling Goddess energy. I feel divine and important. I feel connected to the world. All of the other miracles made of flesh and full of complexity that live here with me. I feel hungry and yet willing to bathe together and eat soup […]

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About 8 abandoned drafts

Written since June. It’s been a rough year, hard for me to think, write, create, exist. And that’s OK. I forgive myself for it. Today, I woke up quite early, with the dark sky still hanging around outside. Having coffee with my husband before he’s off to work. Some shared time while the child sleeps. […]

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Start a draft- Finding human connection in Boise among a Pandemic

Ignore a draft Start a draft Ignore a draft How long will I play this game? I want to write, I want to speak, to communicate so badly but everything in retrospect just feels so meaningless. I’m going to try this morning. My tea is steeping. It’s 9:43 am. The morning has been long, peaceful […]

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Shake

Like a leaf. Like a cocktail. Like a earthquake. Like a human with unhealed trauma. I painted this recently and gave it away. Bless you. Hope you are doing the universe’s bidding and finding joy wherever it hides. Stay strong.

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Like a slap in the face

(personal rant) It is always an interesting thing when the victim advocate is a.. victimizer. When someone uses wealth and status and power to collect people as “friends” that can be abused and gaslight later and called “ungrateful’ for all the help you needed but never asked for. If you have money, if you want […]

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Trigger Warning

I’m bleeding out of my face. Picking at my thumbs in a fit of almost unprecedented anxiety. My eyes are dry, my throat is dry, I’m a little bit high. Everything is fine so far for us I guess. I’ve been thinking about divine purpose and trying to minimize and share more and love my […]

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Late night / Early morning

I made it. 31. I feel confident, for a change. The first time? Up for debate. I feel comfortable, not confident. I guess there’s a difference to distinguish. And so, at 5:30am after kissing my partner goodbye. That’s my powerful human body. I lit 12 candles across the kitchen table. 4 Incense sticks. Set my […]

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