Author Archives: Camicamirobot

Ignore a draft Start a draft Ignore a draft How long will I play this game? I want to write, I want to speak, to communicate so badly but everything in retrospect just feels so meaningless. I’m going to try this morning. My tea is steeping. It’s 9:43 am. The morning has been long, peacefulContinue reading “Start a draft- Finding human connection in Boise among a Pandemic”

Like a leaf. Like a cocktail. Like a earthquake. Like a human with unhealed trauma. I painted this recently and gave it away. Bless you. Hope you are doing the universe’s bidding and finding joy wherever it hides. Stay strong.

(personal rant) It is always an interesting thing when the victim advocate is a.. victimizer. When someone uses wealth and status and power to collect people as “friends” that can be abused and gaslight later and called “ungrateful’ for all the help you needed but never asked for. If you have money, if you wantContinue reading “Like a slap in the face”

I’m bleeding out of my face. Picking at my thumbs in a fit of almost unprecedented anxiety. My eyes are dry, my throat is dry, I’m a little bit high. Everything is fine so far for us I guess. I’ve been thinking about divine purpose and trying to minimize and share more and love myContinue reading “Trigger Warning”

I made it. 31. I feel confident, for a change. The first time? Up for debate. I feel comfortable, not confident. I guess there’s a difference to distinguish. And so, at 5:30am after kissing my partner goodbye. That’s my powerful human body. I lit 12 candles across the kitchen table. 4 Incense sticks. Set myContinue reading “Late night / Early morning”

September. September. This is my season, my month. Fall. The heat takes longer to permeate the air. It feels like hell on Earth. It feels like spiritual warfare. The energy is so thick on this planet that it makes me sweat or cool down the moment I recieve a bit of informations. What kind ofContinue reading “These headlines are killing me”

It is 2020 and this year, everyone is louder. I don’t know where or when the agreement was constructed and signed, I must have missed the private ceremony. If you hate, you hate louder. If you love, you love louder. If you are ignorant, you are ignorant louder. If you kill, you do it louder.Continue reading “Louder”

I have no less than 6 drafts in my WordPress backlog that never made it past 2 sentences. Just different thoughts, headed nowhere fast, ready to use up a small little piece of data. I am trying again tonight. A lot has happened. In the world, in my world, in my country (America). Overchoice or choice overloadContinue reading “Overchoice and the intentional division in America”

That’s a recurring theme of the NDE’s I’ve been reading over the last few weeks at the Near Death Experience Research Foundation. Your soul, spirit, etc floats above your physical body and time seems meaningless while your awareness is fully realized. The calmness, dark tunnel and the white light at the end. That part isContinue reading “Time only has meaning on Earth”

I am a citizen disgusted, of the United States of America. In case you are not, and unfamiliar with news in this country, there has been a racial divide :forever: and it has left us damaged and divided for as long as America broke free from the reigns of Great Britain. He was gunned downContinue reading “A crumb of justice, two months overdue. Ahmaud Arbery & criminal justice reform rant”