The tunnel, the portal, the distance, the light.

These are the stories of dying. I read them all the time at NDERF.ORG. Here is my perspective / summary.

When your physical body dies, “you” are evacuated from it.

This is some kind of a version of reality I accepted for myself a very long time ago. I think it is an improvement, because I no longer identify as my physical body anymore. I am not the woman with the thick dark hair, olive skin, large pores and eyes as dark as night. I am not so critical or depressed over the limitations of this body and this brain of which I occupy.

There is the usual scene reported in NDE’s: Suddenly, I saw a scene from above and in a corner of the ceiling. 

The golden yellow warm light. The awareness of their own physical body dying while spending time in the waiting room or high corner of a room or area.

Our bodies are gifts, we are consciousness energy and we occupy our gifts to further develop the consciousness energy to be more divine.

So, I think the dichotomy of existence dictates that a malevolent God should exist as well. A consciousness energy that manifests itself within humanity and grows stronger with fear. Just like love.

I think that we create our own heaven and hell, in a way. I am sure that all religions are the cultural interpretation of a divine connectedness and love that is God.

I am sure some individuals might recognize our shared humanity is an energy and this energy perhaps is a part of the ever expanding universe as well.

I am a reflection of your pain and trauma. When I am feeling brave, and looking at you in the eyes, I can see in them reflections of all your hurt. And of course, you can see right through me.

We are all here with great purpose, and as humans evolve to be more divine, we will build the heavens of a perfectly harmonious existence on Earth. Raise the vibrations.

After your body dies, I don’t suppose I know what happens. Reincarnation? A perfect union with the other dust particles and ice that occupy our known universe? A different Earth in an alternative dimension? Open your eyes to the endless possibilities.

The First Law of Thermodynamics (Conservation) states that energy is always conserved, it cannot be created or destroyed. In essence, energy can be converted from one form into another.

I light candles a lot, as I create imaginative scenarios around the dancing flame and its connection to the broader universe. And perhaps this is just some metaphysical hullabaloo that I created in my own mind to cope with loss. But maybe, just maybe, the keys to understanding the universe around us require a bit of faith and imagination. I can only tell myself, this makes sense to me but I really don’t know. I don’t know anything at all.


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